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Behind The Booze - The Impact on Loved Ones

Kim Cross

English United States Relationships Society & Culture

· Publishes weekly

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~every 7 days

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Latest

Apr 07, 2026

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About the Show

Behind the Booze is for partners, spouses, former partners, parents, adult children, and friends who have been quietly and deeply affected by someone else’s alcohol addiction. It’s for the ones who slowly lost parts of themselves while trying to hold everything together in the middle of someone else’s drinking. If loving someone with alcohol problems left you anxious, hyper-vigilant, emotionally exhausted, constantly on edge, or questioning your own reality — this podcast was created for you. Hosted by Kim Cross — published author, speaker, and advocate for families impacted by alcoholism — Behind the Booze does not center the alcoholic. It does not diagnose, debate recovery, or focus on fixing them. It focuses on what happened to you. Kim speaks from lived experience. Alcoholism has shaped her life in devastating and undeniable ways — beginning in childhood when her mother was murdered during a domestic violence incident involving alcohol, later losing her little brother in a drunken car accident, losing two of her best girlfriends because of decisions made under the influence, and spending two decades in a relationship marked by alcoholism’s instability, emotional chaos, and trauma. She understands: The sleepless nights. The walking on eggshells. The constant scanning of the room. The fear when a tone shifts. The grief of loving someone who isn’t fully present. The anger you didn’t feel safe expressing. The version of yourself you slowly lost while trying to keep everything from falling apart. Whether you stayed, left, are still in it, your loved one got sober, relapsed, or passed away — these conversations center the emotional and psychological impact on the people who were left adapting, surviving, and questioning themselves. Behind the Booze gives language to experiences that often go unnamed. When no one talks about it, addiction grows. When we name it, families begin to heal. This podcast is about clarity before healing. Language before solutions. Stability before transformation. It is a space where your story is validated — not minimized. Where your nervous system makes sense. Where your grief is acknowledged. Where your identity can begin to return. Because alcoholism doesn’t just affect the person drinking. It impacts everyone who loves them.

Production & Distribution

Active Since

Feb 03, 2026

Consistency

98%

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Episodic

Hosting

anchor.fm

Recent Episodes

S1E10 Ep 10- The Loneliness No One Sees

Apr 07, 2026 5m

Loneliness after loving someone with alcoholism doesn’t always look the way you expect.It can exist in a full house.It can linger after the chaos ends.It can show up even when things “should” feel…

S1E9 Ep 9- When Healthy Feels Wrong

Mar 31, 2026 6m

Dating after loving someone with alcoholism can feel confusing.Not because you don’t want something healthy — but because healthy can feel unfamiliar.When your nervous system has adapted to…

S1E6 Ep 8- Learning to Trust Yourself Again

Mar 24, 2026 5m

When did you stop trusting yourself?Not them.You.Loving someone with alcoholism can slowly disconnect you from your own instincts — whether you stayed, left, they got sober, relapsed, or are no…

S1E7 Ep 7- Why You Feel So Angry Now

Mar 17, 2026 4m

You weren’t always this angry.In fact, you used to be patient. Understanding. The one who kept the peace.So why does it feel like anger is sitting just under the surface now?In this episode of Behind…

S1E6 Ep 6- When Your Body Won't Calm Down

Mar 10, 2026 4m

🎙 Episode 6 – When Your Body Won’t Calm DownHave you ever noticed that even when nothing is happening… your body still feels like something is about to?Like you’re bracing.Like peace feels…

S1E5 Ep 5- Grieving Someone Who Is Still Alive

Mar 03, 2026 5m

There’s a kind of grief no one prepares you for.Not the grief of death — but the grief of loving someone who is still alive and no longer feels fully there.In this episode of Behind the Booze – The…

S1E4 Ep 4- When They Don't Choose You

Feb 25, 2026 6m

You weren’t asking for perfection. You were asking to be chosen.In this episode, we talk about the heart-crushing realization that love isn’t enough when someone keeps choosing alcohol, chaos, and…

S1E3 EP 3- Sobriety Didn't Fix What Alcohol Broke

Feb 17, 2026 5m

When someone stops drinking, everyone expects things to get better.But for many loved ones, the pain doesn’t disappear just because the alcohol does.In this episode of Behind the Booze – The Impact…

S1E2 Ep 2-Why It’s So Hard to Let Go After Loving an Alcoholic

Feb 10, 2026 6m

Leaving an unhealthy relationship doesn’t always bring immediate relief — especially when alcohol was involved. In this episode of Behind the Booze, we talk about why the emotional pull can linger…

S1E1 Ep 1- If you loved an alcoholic this podcast is for you.

Feb 03, 2026 7m

If you loved an alcoholic and don’t recognize yourself anymore, this episode is for you.In this first episode of Behind the Booze, we talk about the part no one explains — how loving someone with…