Sam Was Here: Losing My Son to Addiction
Angie Kennedy
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#64 The Trauma of a Child's Death: You Can Never Unsee Another Parent's Pain
Watching other Parent's grieve a lost child is even more painful after losing my own. This episode is a reflection of the beginning and also a discussion of what helped me in the beginning and an…
#63: New Window, New Light: Being Willing to Let Parts of My Story Take Up Less Space in My Life
I have found that I haven't known what is going to help me move forward in my grief until it does. Much of my healing comes in retrospect: This worked, that didn't, and so on. Six months before…
#62: Finding Gratitude While Grieving: A Superpower in Healing and Moving Forward
Today's Episode is about gratitude because I think it is the defining emotion of my healing. Finding gratitude outside of our grief helps us to and shift our mind into a different perspective. I…
#61: Letting Sam's Life Be Bigger than His Death
After taking a couple of months off podcasting, I have realized that I am at a critical junction in healing from Sam's death. I now want to focus more on healing and what I learned from Sam's life…
#60: Surviving the 3rd Anniversary: Memories, Vulnerability, and a New Puppy
Sam's body was discovered on November 13th, 2022, and his funeral was on the 20th. The anniversary of losing a child never gets easier. The trauma lives in our bodies. In today's episode, I…
#59 Staying Rooted in Reality: Sam's Death Feels Impossible, But So Did the End of His Life
As I struggle with the upcoming 3rd anniversary of Sam's death, I am trying to stay grounded by remembering how difficult the end of his life was. The only time I ever felt "safe" from potential…
#58 Every Anniversary of Losing a Child is Difficult and Complex: My Thoughts, Feelings, and Coping Mechanisms For Our 3rd.
The anniversary of losing a child is so much more than just a date. It involves too much familiarity with everything about the season, recognizing the before and after, and the vulnerability of…
#57: Picking Myself Back Up Again: I Didn't Choose to Lose Sam, But I CAN Choose How I Respond
I am just crawling back out of one of my darkest times. We are nearing the 3rd anniversary of Sam's death and my heart felt unbearably heavy and sad. It felt like it was almost time to give up…
#56 Sam Died Convinced I Had Ruined His Life: Living With the Unresolved Conflict When a Child Dies
Sam told me he would never forgive me for turning him in when he robbed a bank but I was positive he would. I knew that as soon as he got sober, he would understand that I did what I had to save…
#55: Finding Gratitude While Grieving: Why it''s Important, How it Helps Us, and How to Implement it into Your Own Life
Gratitude is most important during the times it's the hardest to feel. such as during great loss and tragedy. However, finding gratitude for what we once had, and what we still have now, is a…
#54: The Spiral Staircase of Life With Grief: We Can't Step Off But We Can Level Up
I recently heard a metaphor that I want to share: Life is like ascending a spiral staircase and because of this, we keep revisiting the same core problems and issues time and again. They may…
#53: Why I Talk About Moving Forward Instead of Reliving Sam's Addiction and Death
When I started this podcast, my intention was to talk more about Sam's addiction and death than I have, but that was before I realized how important my focus is as I move forward with grief. If I…
#52: Why We Shouldn't Expect or Wait to Feel Like Healing: Three Reason's to Start the Process as Soon as We Can
Losing a child is such a torturous journey that If we wait until we feel like moving forward into healing, some of us may never get there. This is why I believe that instead of waiting until we…
#51: Why Every Relationship Changes When We Lose a Child, How I Navigate This Change, and How My Childhood Family Has Helped My Healing
When Sam died, I was surprised to notice all of my relationships were shifting. Some became closer and some more distant. At first I felt hurt and misunderstood but I have learned quite a lot in…
#50: It Wasn't Just One Thing: The Risk of Oversimplifying Our Child's Death to Addiction
When I think about Sam's death, which is large portions of every single day, it's easy for me to get locked into one specific cause or reason for it. The problem with this is that it causes me to…
#49 Shame: 3 Things I Feel Shame About Regarding Sam's Death, How I Use Logic to Help Myself and Why it's So Important to Move Past it.
Shame can be a good emotion if it is used to create change but most of us hold on to it long after the lesson has been learned and we suffer long term consequences because of it. In this episode, I…
#48 Sam Was Here: When the Monsters Come Out at Night
Nighttime is often the most vulnerable time for me because I am all alone with my baseline pain of losing Sam and I cannot escape my own mind and emotions. I am faced with the reality that daytime…
#47 Grief: We Can Compromise For Happiness or Settle For Misery
"We can either compromise for happiness or settle into misery." I heard this phrase about relationships on another podcast and I believe this idea supports the relationship we have with our grief as…
#46: The Forever Cloud of Grief: No Matter How Brilliant My Life Becomes Again, Sam is Still Dead
One of the harshest realities I have had to face since losing Sam is that I live under the glass ceiling of grief now. My best days and most fantastic experiences will never be as purely joyful as…
#45: Anger: I Am Not Angry at Sam For Being Sick, Just the Two "Peace Officers" that Allowed Him to Freeze to Death
In my opinion, any emotion we carry after losing a Son or a daughter is valid. I know that anger is a common emotion after losing a kid to addiction because there is so much chaos and disbelief that…
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Sam Was Here: Losing My Son to Addiction has published 65 episodes since March 2023, covering topics in Health & Fitness, Mental Health.
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