You die if you cry
Sigurd Hartkorn
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About This Podcast
At the age of 20, Sigurd Hartkorn was diagnosed with the serious and incurable disease multiple sclerosis. Now, 16 years later, he is ready to talk about it — not about the disease itself, but about what it has done to his way of being in the world. We will travel all the way from Moroccan nightclubs and endless drinking binges to depression and the fear of dying before his parents. This is a series about living in hiding from, despite, and because of the thing you cannot change. The podcast is produced and edited by Sigurd Hartkorn in collaboration with Danish MS Society. All the music is by Daniel Vognstrup.
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S1E12 12: An undercooked lasagna
In the final episode of the series, Sigurd gathers the threads after 14 years of living with multiple sclerosis. Not as an ending to the disease, because it does not go away, but as an attempt to…
S1E11 11: The emontional spring
We return to Line, who, in the second part of her story, tells us how she regained her trust in life after both the terror attack and, later, her multiple sclerosis diagnosis. It is about forgiving…
S1E9 9: I Miss What We Could Have Had
Laura’s father had been very ill with multiple sclerosis since she was a small child, and as his illness progresses, it becomes increasingly difficult for her to be around the medical aids — and she…
S1E10 10: Dad
Sigurd invites his father, Morten, to hear what it is like as a parent when your child is affected by a serious illness. Morten’s reaction was to crawl into a hole and push other people away — a…
S1E8 8: The Ascent at Rock Bottom
Sigurd realizes that he is no longer living in accordance with his values, and in a desperate attempt to change his situation, he decides to let go and hit rock bottom. But he does not succeed —…
S1E7 7: My Extended Body
Margrethe’s teenage boyfriend gets down on one knee and proposes on the day she receives her diagnosis. It becomes the beginning of a long and beautiful marriage, but also of a long and violent…
S1E6 6: The Nightclub in Morocco
Sigurd begins to settle into a regular rhythm at the hospital and decides to approach it with the same solemnity and dedication as a formal dinner party. At the same time, it becomes important to him…
S1E5 5: A Strange Kind of Happiness
Bashar has not told his parents that he has multiple sclerosis, and he will do everything he can to make sure they do not find out before they go to their graves. This is a story about growing up and…
S1E4 4: Into the Night, Out into the World, Up into the Universe
Sigurd makes a decision not to enter into grief. Instead, he goes out into the night and travels the world. Morning parties, fashion parties and pirate parties. The desert of Abu Dhabi, the rooftops…
S1E3 3: The Terror Attack
As a young woman, Line is in Bali with her folk high school when a terror attack strikes their shared beach bar. Several of her fellow students are killed in the attack, and when Line is diagnosed…
S1E2 2: Sensory Storm
Sigurd found that the world around him spoke the language of grief, clinics and dressings, but the devastating news unexpectedly sent him into the most beautiful sensory storm he had ever…
S1E1 1: When the World Collapses
Suddenly, Sigurd’s world began to tilt. Not metaphorically, but literally. He kept thinking that walls, trees and mirrors were falling down over him — and the phenomenon, which he initially…
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You die if you cry has published 12 episodes since May 2026, covering topics in Documentary, Personal Journals.
You die if you cry is currently sporadic with new episodes hourly. Average episode length is 21m.
